Rachel weeping!

Jeremiah 4:19

Oh, my anguish, my anguish!
I writhe in pain.
Oh, the agony of my heart!
My heart pounds within me,
I cannot keep silent.

Jeremiah 31:15

"A voice is heard in Ramah,
mourning and great weeping,
Rachel weeping for her children
and refusing to be comforted because her children are no more"

This is what the Lord says:
"Restrain your voice from weeping
and your eyes from tears,
for your work will be rewarded."

For all those who come to read my blog, Thank you for visiting and taking time to read about Hannah. Its been increasingly difficult to write about her. The last week has been tough!That's when I came across this verse, as silly as it sounds, I never knew my name and situation was in the bible. OK, I know I am not theologically sound here for those of you who are on zeal for the scriptures. Over look this as a mother's attempt to find identity, in the agony of losing her child.

I never imagined raising Abigail without Hannah... That's my agony!
I could never make Abigail understand, how much her big sister loved her and cherished her... Are there enough words out there for this task? When will Abigail have enough understanding to know what we have gone through? Or will she ever realize it?

The desire for bringing Abigail to this world came out of our deepest concern for giving Hannah a sibling to grow up with. We wanted to give Hannah something she loved to have, that was her un quenching desire for a sibling.

And now, the one who came to give company is left alone, without a companion!

Oh, my anguish, my anguish!
I writhe in pain.

So, it has been a tough week....

But, thorough it all, through it all... I have come to depend upon my God.